[	je me sens	|	excited	]
[	musique	|	rascal flatts	]

sweet home alabama <333
i love you guys so much

[	je me sens	|	sad	]
[	musique	|	tragedy	]

here are some truths:

[	je me sens	|	happy	]
[	musique	|	nickelback	]

hmm. so tomorrow we're going back to school tomorrow. that's not so bad. i wouldn't mind still being on break though. anywayyy.

you know, this was like, the best break ever. it really was. i can't even explain how great this break was.

anyway. i'm gonna go look for my p.e. shirt which i lost because i really need to find it. i have p.e. first period tomorrow. grr. and i think i'm gonna go take a shower too. and watch the sugar bowl, like whaaa.

payce, nigga.

[	je me sens	|	grateful	]
[	musique	|	relient k	]

so, it's christmas. i was kinda happy this christmas. it wasn't a bummer at all. i got my AF1s and i'm so happy. haha, who knew that shoes could make you so happy. i got some other stuff too.. like this one fit that's gonna look heckof cute with my shoes. but the shoes were mostly what i wanted and tomorrow my mom is taking me shopping because she didn't know what to get me so i pretty muchly get to pick out what i get. haha. yay!

only some of my friends will be able to appreciate what i'm about to write, but i just have to say this is why i love my family so god damn much. my uncle didn't know what to get my cousin for christmas so he bought him weed.

i'm totally in love with 'i so hate consquences' by relient k. i think i've listened to it about fifty something times in the last two days. i don't know why, but the lyrics just make me feel something that i can't really explain.. but it's something that just pulls at me.

so here i sit looking at the traffic lights, the red extinguishes the hope that the green ignites.

[	je me sens	|	silly	]
[	musique	|	rock and roll, baby.	]

i feel like writing about myself. so i'm going to just write a whole bunch of random facts about me and call it an update, whadya say?

... okay, i'm done.

[	je me sens	|	annoyed	]
[	musique	|	none.	]

that's cool how my brother is pretty muchly the most annoying person i know. he does shit all the time to frickin' antagonize me. it pisses me off hella bad. and the worst part is.. he yells. i hate when people yell. it makes me so angry, you don't even know at all.

i don't want to go to school tomorrow. i don't want to have a traditional day at all. and i'm not really all that anxious about finals either. at least we get half days like all week. yay! too bad i have to come back everyday for soccer. oh well.

well. i'm gonna go sleep or something.

peace out.

[	je me sens	|	thoughtful	]
[	musique	|	breaking benjamin	]

you know what's irritating sometimes, is how people think you're stupid just because you're young. they think they automatically know more than you just because they've been around longer.. but that's not true at all. i know people who are older than me who haven't lived as much as i have. it's weird.. because i know people my age who have deeper, more intense feelings and better insight on life than people who are twice my age, or older than that even. it makes me angry sometimes how people think that just because somebody's not even out of high school yet then they obviously don't know anything about life.. but that's nowhere near true at all. it's like people think you don't have feelings and dreams if you don't have a high school diploma. it's stupid.

you know what's amazing is how one person can make you feel so many things. that's not a bad thing, but it can be.

[	je me sens	|	zippy!	]
[	musique	|	creed	]

my toe hurts.

you know, i don't think i've ever been as happy as i am right now. i really mean that. i just.. i've never had everything going so right for me. i mean, yeah.. i found out that i have friends that i can't really trust but whatever, you know, i can deal. i know they probably shouldn't really even be my friend if i can't trust them.. but i just don't want to have any problems, you know. i've changed like that. it used to be i loved starting shit with people and having somebody to mean mug and shit.. but, i don't know. i guess that's just not really my thing anymore. i've matured and moved on and i'm so glad for that.

i don't know why, but lately i've been really nostalgic. don't get me wrong, i hellof love my life right now. school's going great and i couldn't possibly ask for better friends because i've pretty muchly got the best friends anybody could ever have.. but i'm just like, fascinated by my past right now. by who i used to be and how i used to live my life. i would never want to go back to being the old me.. but i guess i'm just embracing who i used to be and how i ended up being the me that i am right now.

i guess all i really need to say, is that i love who i am. i love the life that i have. i love the people who are in my life right now. but i don't regret who i was anymore. i don't regret who i used to love, i don't regret the choices that i made and i don't regret that part of my life. i used to, but i don't anymore.

if i could, i'd thank each and every person who helped shape the person i am today. even the people who hate my guts now.

hmm. well i'm done, so you go have yourself a good night. or day.

[	je me sens	|	empty.	]
[	musique	|	midtown.	]

the world can be an ugly, cold cruel place. and it can also be the most tragically beautiful place. but no matter whether it's ugly or beautiful, the world has so much love in it. love can do so many things, it's such an amazingly powerful thing. love brings people to you when you need them the most. no matter how much you fuck up, no matter how selfish you are, no matter how bitter you are... there is always somebody who's gonna love you no matter what. there's always going to be somebody who'll love you to the end of the earth and back, even if you don't realize it.

i love you, squirt.

on a lighter note, i have no self control. and i really need to work on that. HARD.

as of right now i feel like a failure.